Sunrise

Yesterday I got back from an amazing camping trip to Goblin Valley. I really wanted to see the sunrise. I got up at 5:30 to watch it. It was a beautiful thing. It seemed like it happened a lot faster than I was expecting. While I was watching I came up with the little poem below. I hope you all enjoy!

It starts with a dark pink and turquoise
Spreading from side to side
Not too fast but fast enough
that it seems to run along the grey clouds.
Just when I think it can't go any farther,
Or be more beautiful
It disappears.
But there is more.
The pink is back
Softer this time.
With mixes of orange and yellow
The warmth of the light
starts to warm my shivering body.
And seems to open up my heart.
Things are getting clearer
It has a way of capturing my interest.
Before I realize it
An hour has already passed
And this is just the beginning
of what will be going
for the next 14 hours or so
It will give strength to plants
And vitamin D to you and me.
Best of all
Warmth and light
To everything it touches.

Habits

So there is something funny about habits. I went and served a mission for 1 year and 6 months. Everyday I woke up at 6:30 am and I thought that it would be so hard to get out of that habbit when I get back from my mission...nope. I think it took me less than one day if that is possible. haha I'm not saying I sleep in until noon but there is definitely not an internal clock waking me up at 6:30.

So what is it that makes habbits so hard to make and so easy to break? Like daily prayers, excercise, always smiling, keeping your head up...etc. Seriously. And others are so easy to make and hard to break...biting your nails, tapping your foot, typing in facebook when you log on your computer...etc.

I've been thinking about this a lot today because I have forgotten to do a few things that should be routine already but JUST AREN'T. How can I always remember? Well, I know it is hard. Especially when your memory is like mine but I heard someone say once, "If you really want to remember you will." Ouch. It is true though. I have to just make sure my priorities are STRAIGHT. If I think about the important things hard/often enough then I will remember them. Then I will not have to have them as a habit but something more than that, something important everyday.

Well....

This will be the first blog post since after the mission. I really don't know what I want to write about. I am just trying to get into writing again. Blogging is so refreshing. I can say whatever I want and since I practically don't have an audience I don't have to worry about anyone judging what I say or neglect to say.

Life after the mission has been interesting. Really. I think that is the best word. It hasn't been that exciting and I feel like I am at a loss of what I should do a lot of the time but then I just pray and I feel better. Now I feel like all the time I was in Guatemala was just a blink of an eye or a 30 second dream that felt like 18 months. I feel like my Spanish has already degraded by 50% but...that's how life is I guess.

What did I learn from my mission? Patience...and that even though I have a lot of it I can still gain a lot more as well. The important things in life take time. If you think about it, life is full of marshmallow sitting in front of our faces that we just have to wait for the right time for.

I LOVE nature...more than I thought. Really! Everytime I step outside I just fall in love. If nature was a person I would ask him to marry me...okay maybe not but you get the picture. I mean look at this picture! Doesn't it make you want to hug someone??

 

I love my family so much...I really know I couldn't have made it through my mission with out my family. Especially the first part. That was the hardest part for me. My family was always aware. Some showed it differently than others but I felt their prayers in my behalf and their thoughts of me. Family bonds can go many miles.

 

Love...I worry about others a lot more than myself now. It is a strange place to be. My poor kids are going to feel like I am always with them because I will be so carefully watching them to make sure they are happy and okay (maybe that will change before they come cuz who knows when that will be haha).  I think I learned what real love is in the mission. It is accepting people even though we know that they have weaknesses and faults and are far from perfect. En serio, Heavenly Father knew what he was doing when he made us.





 

I just love life. It is super hard right now. Social challenges are hard to get through but I know that one day I will be able to feel normal just sitting down watching a movie, reading a book, or chatting with someone just because it is fun. It's important to do things like that once in a while. My mission changed me I think. As I come to know what has changed I'll post again. :) until next time...